Monday afternoon I took a conference call on the porch and checked emails from the garden beds and pulled resources for colleagues in need. At 12:30 I left to physically be in the office and waved goodbye to the girls at the gate with promises of flying kites in the field that night. When I drove back in at 5:45 they were dressed and holding their kites. We made our way to the farthest end of the property and threw wild flower seeds and watched the kites whip in the wind.
Tired at sunset we made our way back to the house. On Tuesday everyone was out of sorts. Big emotions and tired bodies. By 11 I hit pause on homework assignments and told them to take a break outside. 5 minutes later both girls were crying and I scooped them up and we sat under the shade of the plum tree and I told them we needed to hit reset. I walked down and found Lance sitting quietly at the edge of the greenhouse and had him come up to the house. I made a huge charcuterie board and we sat down for grace.
I left for work and came home with promises to plant sunflower seeds in a row. When I got home Evelyn seemed fine. The girls greeted me at the gate and waited for me to change out of my work clothes. They showed me their creations and I called them for dinner and bath. Evelyn told me she was cold after her bath and was all bundled up in blanket. I was perplexed by her blotchy red body and tired eyes. I held my hand to her head and scrambled to get the thermometer. 103.5 and lethargic. I carried her back to the bath to cool her body and began rewashing her hair for some reason. I found 3 ticks on the back of her head and called for Lance, Amelia lingering behind him trying to hear my whispers.
By now it was 8:45 and I knew we would miss the urgent care by minutes. I called the advice nurse and was told we had 4 hours to find a place to take Evelyn in to be seen. A handful of phone calls later and frantic text to my mom and sisters at close to 10 asking them to pray for Evelyn. I didn’t want to take her to the emergency room, but I couldn’t not take her because she was so sick. Blue cross put me on with an emergency room doctor in California who requested she be seen and assured me that at close to 11:30pm the emergency room was empty and we would be seen right away. I asked what they would do and what she would be given. He went over it with me and then said, “if you can keep her fever down and watch for a rash tonight then take her to the pediatrician first thing in the morning, then you don’t have to bring her right now. If it changes, then straight to Emergency.” Motrin, cool wash cloths, Pedialyte and prayers all night long.
In the morning her fever was holding at 100 and she looked better. Pediatrics got us right in and taught me to look for the signs of Lyme Disease. How high her fever could go before I had to take her to the hospital and how severe her reaction was to 3 tick bites in one location, the lymph nodes down her neck entirely swollen. By noon and a dose of heavy antibiotics she was tired but the fever was gone. By Thursday she was getting her appetite back. Today she was busy and playing. We are still watching her for fever and rash for 27 more days. And she has over a weeks worth of antibiotics to take still.
You guys my heart was wrecked and beating in my ears at midnight with her in my arms. Evelyn hates doctors more than anything and she was terrified and so brave. She asked me what was going to happen and as calm as I could I walked her through it. I was praying and talking to her and singing. As I put on her little slippers and purple sweats for the doctor she looked at me and asked if we could pray, I hadn’t stopped praying, but I took her in my arms and we stopped. We prayed for her protection and healing and future. “Gods got us, Evie, no matter what happens or what we have to do. He already knows.” When we got to the doctors office she looked up at me with big eyes and her little cupcake mask on and whispered, “I am brave. Gods got me.”
It was a long week. With a lot of hard and scary and good and trust and faith. I check her constantly, and she lets me, and she always gives my hand a squeeze and thanks me for doing it. Evelyn laid down in the field to watch her kite on Monday, and on Friday, we are still looking up, so thankful that Gods got us and meets us right where we are every single time.